You thought I'd never be back, huh.

But I'm back. I feel ...rather unbalanced right now. It's been with me for a while now. I can't find my core..I can't find a ...I'm not centered.

We've been having gorgeous weather as of late. and I've actually seen more of my friends in the past week than I have in this year alone. Pluses of working in the mall?

I actually caught Jill in my store with...apparently, her beau. It was wierd....I just watched her in half-awe, slightly covering my face, half "oh shit" and half "no kidding". I didn't know whether to run or stay.

But she didn't notice me. My assistant manager noticed me acting oddly but didn't say anything.

I'm doing good in my classes. But I get really tired often. I'm SO very glad that I"m only working thirty to forty hours.. I don't know how I would manage eight hours a shift, five shifts a week..just because that is fucking brutal on your feet and back...as much as I love my shoes, I hate them.

I've actually READ my textbooks. And studying. Did you know that I've never had to study like this before? Yeah....my high schools babied me. Every single thing was covered in class, so all's I'd have to do is show up and listen.

Of course there was that semester that I missed almost half of.

But let's not talk about that.

I like Dave. Like I trust that he's a friend for life.

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It took me a while to word and type that one out. Am I just hexing myself?

I like his hugs and his voice. I like his big hands. And the muscles. I like how we talk every night...or at least we try to.

Today's my day off. What am I going to do? Homework. The only reason why i'm updating NOW is because I found this very interesting. Her current entry is about intimacy... and I found a lot of truth. Internet intimacy? bah.

Give me shivers up the spine with your fingertips...the softness of full lips upon my own. Give me sighs that you hear in heart, and feel on the nape of your neck. A piggyback ride. A pool game.

Give me that.. and more.