I almost told him last night that I loved him. I didn't because, well...it would seem silly, right?

I've only known him for about five months. How can I love him? I don't know what he would think, or what he would say..god forbid he say only, "thanks."

No. I want to be sure about all his reactions.

I want him to know that he isn't just anybody to me. We almost did it last night. After dinner at a Chinese restaurant near his house we cuddled on the couch to watch Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon. We brushed our teeth. ...we ended up in bed, curled up, me stroking his face.. it felt so certain that time stood still.

How could he not know? I almost cried in bed last night because I really wanted to tell him...

I'll be a virgin for another month, at least.

I felt so very sick last night a couple hours after the pill. Luckily, I'm taking it at night so I'll probably be asleep tonight when I take it. Still feeling very funny this morning, though. Kind of a sicky-sicky feeling, like I want to throw up but I can't, upset- stomache kind of thing.