I almost told him last night but I didn't.

We're so different.

I'm emotional; he's logical. He's social; I'm anti-social. I'm chaste; he's..not. I love being in love...him....I don't think he's really experienced it.

And he thinks i'm just living in yesterdays... I'm sad because I want to be with someone who probably thinks it's more casual than anything.

It hurts.

How do you tell someone this? How do you explain...it's like we speak different languages.

I look in his eyes and I think that I see understanding, but he's just sizing me up. When I think we're cuddling..he thinks we're just cuddling.

I feel dirty.

When we went out last night, all we did was go to a noodle house, then parking. Some idiots went and pulled the alarm in the lot.. those bastards.

I feel like shit right now too as I'm menstrating funnily from the pill. I feel like such a baby.

Hey, no one ever told me that the first pill of the cycle makes you feel all sicky again. damnit. Now I have that to look forward to next week.

grr.